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Purposeful Pause

  I rarely sit still. I don't relax like most people think of relaxation. When my house is clean and organized, I feel less anxious. When the grass is cut and clear, I enjoy sitting outside more. I love pulling weeds. It gives me such satisfaction taking the junk out of the ground and manicuring flower beds, by yanking them out and getting dirty. I don't typically sit and just watch television. I'm either on my phone scrolling or working on something on my computer. I'm a veracious reader of non-fiction, historical fiction or stories that involve warrior women overcoming societal norms. Never just fluff reading. Reaction being part of my nature, its been a growth challenge for me to PAUSE.  As a leader I've always believed that I needed to have all the answers, that I needed to have immediate solutions or that everything was urgent. This led me to burnout, making too many mistakes and going back on initial decisions. Being so reactive also caused me not think about ...

Getting Out of My Comfort Zone!!

I really enjoy trying new things, but I definitely experience anxieties, self doubt and can second guess myself all the time and even talk myself out of doing something because I think I wont do well, I'll look weird or I'll just totally fail. These last two weeks has been a test of how far I'll get out of my COMFORT ZONE to better myself personally and professionally.  During my health journey, I've been trying different yoga classes that push me beyond my regular Yin or slow flow classes. Recently I've been attending Hot Yoga classes at Aris Yoga . I've taken Bikram Yoga Classes (26+2) where there room temperature is set a 105 degrees and you flow through 26 therapeutic poses that focus on balance in the body and the mind. The first time I tried this class, I couldn't make it all the way through. The heat and the level of asanas that we were doing were beyond my current skill level. I was scared that I was looking like a fool, I wasn't able to follow a...

Friendships

  I don't want to sound like a weirdo or a loser, but I don't have many deep friendships. There are tons of people I am friends with, but connections that are fully vulnerable, completely open and unconditional are really hard to come by. In every phase of my life, from being a young child, teenager, sorority sister, toddler mom and now coming into my own, as a middle aged women and being a building leader, true friendships can be tricky. I've had many groups of friends and people that I've hung out with, some I'm still in contact with and other relationships have faded away.  This past weekend, I had the pleasure of getting together with several of my sorority sisters, Kappa Delta, and it made me feel like I was 19 again. Except at 12:00pm, when I needed to go to bed. We laughed, caught up on our lives, shared challenges, successes and dreams for the future. I felt heard, respected, and accepted for who I was and who I currently am. When I got home after that weeke...