I rarely sit still. I don't relax like most people think of relaxation. When my house is clean and organized, I feel less anxious. When the grass is cut and clear, I enjoy sitting outside more. I love pulling weeds. It gives me such satisfaction taking the junk out of the ground and manicuring flower beds, by yanking them out and getting dirty. I don't typically sit and just watch television. I'm either on my phone scrolling or working on something on my computer. I'm a veracious reader of non-fiction, historical fiction or stories that involve warrior women overcoming societal norms. Never just fluff reading. Reaction being part of my nature, its been a growth challenge for me to PAUSE. As a leader I've always believed that I needed to have all the answers, that I needed to have immediate solutions or that everything was urgent. This led me to burnout, making too many mistakes and going back on initial decisions. Being so reactive also caused me not think about ...
Winter has always been a difficult time for me. Being cold and lack of sunlight keeps me inside and away from nature. I can't stand being cold. Even inside I have on several layers; long sleeve shirts, double socks and slippers. I spend as little time as possible walking the dogs, out and about in the yard and I mostly end up sitting in-front of the TV instead of observing and enjoying nature around me. Multiple times per day I'll say, "why do I live here?" or "I need to move somewhere that is warm all the time". I feel so unmotivated when the weather is colder. My body uses so much energy just to stay warm, that any other activity is just too time consuming. My shoulders are constantly raised, my back is hunched over and I feel tense at all times. This feeling is essentially by body going through thermoregulation. My body struggles with thermoregulation which then significantly impacts my energy levels as well as regulating my immune system. When the weathe...