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Purposeful Pause

  I rarely sit still. I don't relax like most people think of relaxation. When my house is clean and organized, I feel less anxious. When the grass is cut and clear, I enjoy sitting outside more. I love pulling weeds. It gives me such satisfaction taking the junk out of the ground and manicuring flower beds, by yanking them out and getting dirty. I don't typically sit and just watch television. I'm either on my phone scrolling or working on something on my computer. I'm a veracious reader of non-fiction, historical fiction or stories that involve warrior women overcoming societal norms. Never just fluff reading. Reaction being part of my nature, its been a growth challenge for me to PAUSE.  As a leader I've always believed that I needed to have all the answers, that I needed to have immediate solutions or that everything was urgent. This led me to burnout, making too many mistakes and going back on initial decisions. Being so reactive also caused me not think about ...

Being True to Myself

  I am not the easiest person to live with, work with or love. I can be opinionated, stubborn, revel and being right and snarky when I get annoyed. I have trouble "checking my face". My emotions are usually very known by my facial expressions, tone and body language. I can be very confident, blunt and come with "receipts" to any conversation or argument. I believe in being honest, keeping it real and not "beating around the bush". This all can come off as being bitchy, intimidating and aggressive.  On the flip side of it, I care A LOT. I will fight for what I believe is right. I will love with all of my heart and will ensure justice and support for my family, my staff and the students that I work with each and every day. Integrity is super important to me. I strive to live my life as authentically, honestly and without secrets or manipulation as much as possible.  When I screw up, I take accountability for my actions or words. If I hurt someone I will apol...

Back to School Anxiety

I can not sleep. I'm waking up three to four times a night with the strangest dreams and thoughts. I know this is my mind working through the anxieties of the unknown, what there is to come this school year and what challenges I will have to face and overcome.  I don't remember having these types of worries as a child at the beginning of the school year. School was always my safe place, even though I wasn't the best student, I enjoyed being with friends, reading, writing and learning new information. However, as a teacher and Principal, it has been totally different.  About a month before school starts is when it beginnings. June is calming and I rest easy. However, after the 4th of July my mind is constantly in a state of unrest. My dreams are so vivid and physically involved. I wake up in full sweats, heart pumping, muscles tense and breathing heavy; so much so, I can't fall back to sleep. The majority of my dreams are quite ridiculous actually: not being able to find...